this blog comes in the middle of my PREPARATORY LEAVE. the pl is written in capital only to emphasise the importance of this little period of 20 or so days in the life of an engineer. anyone reading this should not try to find any hidden meanings in the capitals for this is not modern art and there is no hidden meaning here( still if anyone can manage to find any do tell me abt it).
anyways i am writing today only because i felt like writing. i have been planning to write since a long time but could not find time for it until today.
now tht i have found the time, i intend to make it count ( tho wht i am hoping to achieve when i say make it count beats me). as my previous post promises ill start with a review, discussion, article, debate, criticism- whtever u choose to call it- of the PRELIMS. now this caps certainly has a hidden meaning. to those who cannot decipher it- think of it as being written with the same intention as the PL in caps and if ur an engineer especially one from VESIT, u will get the point. in my previous post i remember mentioning tht the prelims is the biggest farce in the name of an examination tht i have witnessed. never before have i been so truthful in my life. this prelim was just as important as it is for saurav ganguly to pass a fitness test before playing a match. sarcasm aside(tho it not entirely possible), if i try to find one positive, one small little tiny positive out of the prelims, it wud have to be my enthusiasm for the maths paper(for reasons tht most of those reading will not be able to guess and it is certainly not a desire to do well in atleast one paper) and the resulting proficiency in maths tht i gained out of it. tho the objective tht i had in mind for writing the paper has not been fulfilled bcoz i did not get the corrected version of my answer paper( i doubt whether the teacher has considered them important enuf to be used as toilet paper even). of course the only good thing coming out of that period of 5 days (not the prelim mind u) is tht i finally for the first time in my life managed a trip to a remote place on the face of earth that some fool named kalyan coz tht is certainly wht happens by the time u get there( this joke mite be understood by those who know a smattering of hindi) and the trip was not without incident.
but the prelims is over. the pl is on in full swing. my time table is out. for once i have said something good for the mu coz they have come out with a wonderful timetable tht has made my pl wonderfully easy and not the hard times tht i had envisaged it to be sometime in the recent past. so the actual reason y i am writing this post today is tht i want an account of my pl so far(finally got to the main reason. took a long time coming).
this sem the beginning of the PL was marked by the auspicious festival of Diwali which is in general a very special festival and this Diwali was my best ever for a variety of reasons most of which i would not like to go into at this point of time, maybe sometime later. one of the main reasons which i can certainly include here is tht i had my house all to myself with noone arnd me. my parents could not have chosen a better time to go on vacation. i spent most of diwali with myself and my friends which was exactly wht i wanted to do.
diwali came and diwali went. during tht time studies happened and then again studies did not happen(plz do not ask me wht this is supposed to mean, i just felt like putting it in tht way) but i was not really concerned and still am not coz of the timetable being so good and my academics being in a generally good condition.
after diwali something happened tht has had me confused ever since. my nani( for those who do not know hindi-my maternal grandmother) passed away. she was well above 80 with already a close brush with death once in the past and so this was not unexpected. even then the news came to me as a surprise and a little bit of shock coming as it did at 3 in the morning. bcoz of tht my mom left immediately on the next flight and my dad left soon after which once again left me all alone( my brother was there but we lead separate lives so tht was not so much of a problem) and it still is like tht as of today. my mom dad will be back by thursday after which life will get back to normal (normal meaning as it was when they r generally here- not good or bad or any such thing). food has been one problem these 2 weeks as i have had to shuffle from one place to another for lunches and dinners and also a lot of dinners in restaurants where 8 out of 10 times(yeah i have been to restaurants for dinner almost 10 times in 2 weeks) i have ended up eating pav bhaji. i hereby promise tht for the remainder of the pl i shall not touch pav bhaji and this is one promise i intend to keep( sounds familiar.........i say this all the time but it never happens so all the best to me). the confusion is because i have enojyed this little period where i was alone but i am not sure whether i was supposed to enjoy it bcoz of the circumstances which led to my being alone. tht is a question tht will probably never be answered and i am not sure whether i even want an answer now. whts done is done. if wht i have done is wrong then maybe someone close to me will also enjoy when i am no more but tht hopefully is a long way off so no point in thinking abt it rite now.
so in this fashion half my pl is over. it has been one really wonderful half pl again for reasons i cannot or maybe do not want to include here rite now. watch out for the reason later coz i am sure there will be one post explaining them tho i am not sure when tht will be.
academically also as i have already written earlier it has been good. how good is something tht only my results will tell and i do not bother a huge lot abt them anyways.
one final point tht i dont know y but i want to include here. this post is not a record of ne emotional hormonal psychological pseudo-psychological or ne odr such imbalance. in fact it is the exact opposite (which is also a kind of imbalance but not like the earlier ones which this blog is full of) and so this makes in 2 in a row tht i have written when i have been feeling good which is a good sign coz tht means i have not felt any such lows since a pretty long time which again confirms the fact tht my lows have something to do with the college and i am generally happier when there is no college. it is also a good thing for this blog coz it is no longer just a blaring record of troubled times but a true companion in all my good and bad times. phew!!!! tht was some final point.
i seem to have written a lot here. i think this is my biggest blog to date i am not really sure but i have just gone one writing whtever i have felt and so the size does matter.
once again i wud like to reiterate tht this is not a bedtime story and so is not meant to entertain. if anyone reading it(i dont knw y i am including this coz i dont knw many ppl who do, in fact i dont knw any who do) finds it boring or has anything to complain abt it he or she may do it at
The prime ministers relief fund
p.o.box no 11023
delhi-1
coz complaining abt it here is tantamount to bhes ke aage been bajana(again only for those who know hindi and i am not able to satisfyingly translate it in english) and if anyone is willing to do tht then be my guest.
till then
bye gn shubh ratri shaba khair and do take very good care of yourself(makes a very good good bye line even tho it has been directly copied).
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