hi
and sorry for not writing for so long
i did not coz i was sick and i did not want this to be a record of my sicknesses and grudgings.
nor do i want this to be a drab daily record
so no more of i did this today and will do tht tomm
frm now on only things tht trouble me or which i think r worthy enuf for ur eyes will be mentioned here
tht may mean tht i mite not write for days but when i do it will be sumthin special or sumthin really bad
and a fever is not really bad
tho i felt bad at the way i allowed it to show itself.i dint think i wud bcum so weak on saturday
i always thot i cud fight it out.
and my studies r also going along well.
i will not tell u in detail as it gets boring for me as well let alone u.but i am happy at the way it is progressing.
anyways ill leave now.dont kno when ill be back
hope i do sumthin gud this holi. there will be the celebration in the bldg but i wud like to celebrate it wid my coll and school ppl.dont know how it is going to happen.but atleast one of them shld.
and one more really important thing.............
pray tht my brother gets well by morning and is able to write his exam well.
its not fair tht this shld happen to him b4 his toughest exam.
i think he has caught on whtever i was suffering frm.
just let him thru this exam.
then in 4 days hell b back to normal
so just pray for him.
bye

a mixed bag kind of a day.
had i been perfectly allrite, it wud have been a gud day.but the cold is troubling me a lot.
it is one of the worst colds i have ever been affected with and it follows closely on the heels of one of the worst headaches i have ever suffered from.i dont knw wht is happening to me.
i think i will try and get more sleep and see if it helps.
btw i loved the EMI lec today.she asked me a question which i had absolutely no idea abt and then gave me a punishment assgn which i think will be gud for me when i do it on tuesday.
i had a huge lot of problems soldering today.it is something i usually like to do but today i was coughing and sneezing all the time so it was very difficult to concentrate.
tomm i have a test which i am nopt at all bothered abt.
it will go well i am sure, and even if it does not i dont care a lot as the teacher is nice.
btw i did study a very lil bit of PCS today after talking to vami.as i have told u b4 aslo talking to her or nisha or anush always makes me feel gud.
btw i also had a medicine for my cold today.tho i wanted to get thru it w/o any medication i was simply not possible for me to carry on.i guess bcoz it is this bad i can have some medicines.
anyways i shall cu tomm.plz hope tht my cold atleast gets milder.
bye for now
cya tomm

not a very good day todayi had the slightest of headaches since morning which kept nagging me thruout the day.also sometime durin the day my throat bcame sore.tht has troubled me more than i thot a sore throat cud.the test was just abt ok.i hadnt studied a lot and i am satisfied wid wht i wrote and also wid the fact tht EMI is simpleafter the coll while goin back home i did a very stupid thing(for which i deserve a kick).i was readin angels and demons in the bus which i think made the headache frm bad to worse.since then my head has been spinning and even 3 hrs of sleep hasnt done anything to lighten iti hope my sleep tonite helpswhich brings me to one more very disturbing thing:::today makes it 2 headaches in very less timei havent had 2 in 2 years b4 this.i think it has got sumthin to do wid the time i spend sleepin.it is gettin lesser and lesser day by day.bcoz of tht i sleep in evenings when i shld be studyin(btw i dint do anything today,sorry abt tht)then i dont feel sleepy at nite coz i have slept in the evening and the cycle continues.so frm today onwards i am gonna try and shut my comp down by 11 30 every nite.i am goin to need a lot of effort to do this but i will definitely try my besttomm i have to go coll(how i wish i dint) so i will.also a lot of work tomm after coll so i hope all my ailments disappear overniteand even tht mite not leave me wid enuf time to study for PCS test so ill just hope for the best.anyways bye for nowwill c u tommand i again tell u tht i will try and shut comp by 11 30

not a very good day todayi had the slightest of headaches since morning which kept nagging me thruout the day.also sometime durin the day my throat bcame sore.tht has troubled me more than i thot a sore throat cud.the test was just abt ok.i hadnt studied a lot and i am satisfied wid wht i wrote and also wid the fact tht EMI is simpleafter the coll while goin back home i did a very stupid thing(for which i deserve a kick).i was readin angels and demons in the bus which i think made the headache frm bad to worse.since then my head has been spinning and even 3 hrs of sleep hasnt done anything to lighten iti hope my sleep tonite helpswhich brings me to one more very disturbing thing:::today makes it 2 headaches in very less timei havent had 2 in 2 years b4 this.i think it has got sumthin to do wid the time i spend sleepin.it is gettin lesser and lesser day by day.bcoz of tht i sleep in evenings when i shld be studyin(btw i dint do anything today,sorry abt tht)then i dont feel sleepy at nite coz i have slept in the evening and the cycle continues.so frm today onwards i am gonna try and shut my comp down by 11 30 every nite.i am goin to need a lot of effort to do this but i will definitely try my besttomm i have to go coll(how i wish i dint) so i will.also a lot of work tomm after coll so i hope all my ailments disappear overniteand even tht mite not leave me wid enuf time to study for PCS test so ill just hope for the best.anyways bye for nowwill c u tommand i again tell u tht i will try and shut comp by 11 30

a nice day today.nothin out of the ordinary.
i studied very little.skimmed thru the three chapters for the emi test tomm.and i really mean it when i say skimmed.
i dont know anythin abt most of tomm test portion but from wht i read,i understood tht given a few days emi can be done a it is really simple and only takes some patient reading.i think three days shld be enuf for it and so as my todays msn nick says....lots of balls to tomm's test.
i really think my this sem's attitude towards term work has been surprising.its like i dont care wht i get in term work.i think this sem my term work marks will be below sea level and tht i think is only puttin it mildly.i dont even knw whether i will be able to score in theory coz i dont knw any subjects even superficially.but somehow it will be done.i am confident and so not veyr worried rite now.
anyways as far as tomm is concerned i am not at all concerned abt it and will take it as it comes.
still wish me all the best and forget abt it.ill tell u how it went
bye

another ordinary day.nothin special happened.dint study anything.dint write anything.played a lot on the comp.attended the corel draw workshop tho.dint know it cud do such a lot of stuff.also reached halfway thru angels and demons.a very nice book.
tomm i plan to attend coll and sit for lecs.dont knw whether ill sit for the pracs or not.tht ill leave to a last minute decision
also i finally knw tht my exams are 2 months away.i can now plan my studies.
and i have decided tht i will report my daily efforts to u in detail.
it will help me to knw where i stand.so heres wishing u and me all the best for the comin 2 months
and....
ALL THE BEST to my brother for his exam tomm.he says his exam today went well(who ever says my exam was not good) and has been studyin real hard for his exam tomm.so hope he does well.
bye

a lovely day today.sat at home and did absolutely nothing i did not want to.
studied ecad and mup and am happy tht atlast my sem iv studies have kicked off.
altho the test for tomm has been postponed(a miracle in itself) i was comfortable wid it being tomm also.wud have got thru it somehow i am sure.
then played in evening ,watched television(indian idol reruns,tho it is the first time i am watching them) and then online and now planning to sleep after reading a little bit.
tht wat i call an ideal day
also i talked to nisha and anush after abt a week , hearing their vicoes always makes me feel gud.
tomm have to go to coll early coz rajani wants to attend first lec.so ill go and attend all lecs tomm.maybe ill get home early.and finally
ALL THE BEST to my brother. just let him do his best and God the rest(i wud never have asked god to do anythin for me tho).
bye
cu tomm

hi
another of those normal days where nothing special happened and life just went on smoothly.
the engagement was fun and i dint feel sorry tht i missed day 2 of praxis.odr than tht i played cricket,wrote journal and so on.i am not goin to bore u wid these useless details .
tomm i am not goin to coll and am planning to study ecad and either mup or maths .i do have three tests this week but am not really bothered abt them.i dont care even if i score a zero or full marks.tho i will try and study for them but not wid any sense of urgency
so bye cu tomm

today started wid the match which was gr8 fun to watch coz finally i saw some resistance from pakistan.i also studied a bit of ecad in the morning and then went to coll fo praxis after having lunch(one of my very few lunches this sem).praxis was fun.i loved rappelling dint think a lot of flying fox and enjoyed brainwaves where i reached the finals.the finals was one of the most boring quizzes i have ever been to and it was endurable only bcoz i had a gr8 team in shirish and sk.all in all it was a pretty good day tht i enjoyed.
i now look forward to tomm engagement which my mom says will keep me busy till 4.so i will not go to coll tomm.as it is there is hardly anything of interest happening tomm in praxis so no incentive to go there also.i will complete my mup journal tomm and then if there is time study a bit.also msn is not working so there is nothing i can do online and so i am planning to go to sleep early and enjoy a nice long night.so bye and cu tomm.

hi vami how was ur day?i had a nice day in coll today.dint sit for any lectures.dint even think abt u the entire day.i was rite.it was only bcoz it was sumthin new.
anyways i have to tell u abt a girl in my coll called Neha.in the span of three months she has bcum one of my best frnds and now knows more abt me than maybe i do and definitely more abt me than my parents do.the only ppl who knw me better than her r ronie,vami(not u),nisha and anush.
it was bcoz of her tht i was out in the second lecture even tho there was nothin for me to do. i ended up spendin the morn doing sumthin here, sumthin there helping anyone who needed help
then there was a meetin of all volunteers where i slept and then an sfe meetin which went well.
then i stayed back even after ronie left and i am sure it was bcoz she asked me to tho i think i wud have even if anyone else had asked me to as i cud not have said no to them.but i am sure tht i wudnt have stayed back till 8 had it been sumone else who had asked me to.tho i enjoyed the time and dont regret stayin back, i think it is time i started practicing sayin NO to ppl.
i am sure i will never be able to say NO ever to my best frnds so ppl like ronie vami neha nisha anush will always find me agreeing to most of their requests but generally i think it is time i start sayin no
it is not tht i have not tried.i have read an entire bk on "how to say NO w/o offendin anyone" but ti has not helped a lot. so frm today i promise tht i will try my level best to say no to things th i really dont wanna do .tht does not mean i say no to anything and everything but atleast to sumthings like refusing to bunk lecs or pracs wid ramu.i am sure one reason i bunk so many pracs is bcoz on some days i dont wanna bunk and on odrs he just tells me to bunk and i cant say no.but who am i kiddin?????!!!!tht promise is the vaguest one on earth as i can never prove to myself tht i did not try.tho i sincerely want to i knw it will take some doin and also tht i will have to do it all on my own as i have always done things and i also knw tht i will do it just like odr times tho this one take a hell of a lot of time and effort and determination on my part.

one more thing i think u shld knw is tht this praxis has really confused me.i really wanted to be a part of the organisation of praxis until i found tht guddi ben's engagement is on this sunday.
after tht i found i had no interest in praxis anymore .i also went thru the sponsorship wid only a professional attitude tht it ismy job and i have to give it my best which i knw i did but my mind was not on it.i found tht i was not lookin foward to it the way i did for sphurti utsav annual day and also sfe events.even today i look forward to workin for events after praxis like the sympo but praxis has lost all its interest.tho i think i kno th reason for tht is tht the engagement is much more important than praxis. i reall like her(my sis) and so am actually lookin fowad to the engagement and seeing who she is gettin engaged to.also tomm is the last day of the test match and i dont wanna miss tht too. anyways i think this is gettin too long so i will leave now .and as i am writing after 12 for the record this is for friday the 11th of march

i have decided tht u and my odr blog will coexist
i will write on whichever blog i want to
and both of u will have an identity
i am not going to refer to u as blogs
u r the one whom i will tell all tht i feel
and from now on u will be called vami
hi vami
i am not goin to bore u wid a blow by blow report of the day
only a short summary .
more importantly i am goin to tell u things tht maybe i havent ever told anyone else. not even my parents
today :-i got a scholarship of 35000.tho i dint feel any joy at it the same way tht i wudnt have been sad if i hadnt got anything
the rest of the day i watched match ,
then played some cricket(after soooooooo many days)
then studied mup(for the first time)
and now online and then sleep
2 things tht i have to tell u r this:
first i was surprised at the effect kane and abel has on me. i was readin it while standin in the line,in the train,in the bus even tho i knw tht readin in moving vehicles gives me a headache tho luckily this time it dint
i missed getting down at the rite bus stop then read it while walking on the road narrowly missed dying twice(a bit of exaggeration) and finally got home safely.i think it is bcoz of kane and abel coz it is a beautiful book.even u shld read it
the second thing is tht i was continuously thinkin of u the entire time i was free.
i have thot a lot abt wht i will write today and wht i wont.tht is not how i want it to be.i want it to be spontaneous.tho i am sure it will be in a few days when the novelty will wear off.but ur name i hadnt decided earlier
just gave it rite now
anyways ill leave now
cu tomm
bye

hi vami

another day

yesterday was a very bad day of my life.
even tho it was a holiday in coll and generally i feel very happy sittin at home and doin nuthin once a while
i had this 3 hour meetin wid all sfe coords where we planned a lot of stuff
i dont know if it was this or the fact tht later i was readin a novel as well as listening to the radio at the same time which gave me one of the worst headaches tht i can remember.
i had actually planned to not come online but then i remembered my sfe work for which i came online, did it in abt 5 min and then spent another hour dwnlding a song and chatttin which then contributed to the headache continuing on the next day also
fortunately the sleep really helped and it was very mild today so i cud go abt my activities almost normally
not tht i have a lot to do
and then the day was just another pleasant one which wud have been gud but for the headache which i am sure will go by tomm so it does not bother me a lot now
wht i am happy abt is the fact tht i saw it thru w/o a shred of medication and wht bothers me is the fact tht a headache can be so much trouble
anyways tomm i am going to have a good day as i have to go to confirm my scholarship and then i am gonna be home for the rest of the day.tho i have to again go out in the evening and i dont like to do wht i am gonna have to do
i just hope there will be no calls frm coll tho i have a gut feelin tht sfe will beckon
and i will have no choice but to go
as it is i have been decidin everyday tht i will start studyin or atleast writin journals but the day never seems to come
i do hope there will be sumthin pleasant to report just to make this blog and my life cheerful

headache

i am back

i am back

i think i am going to use this blog as a kind of a personal diary
today i went to coll and bunked my first pracs and the first 2 lecs
actually all tht i attended in a 6 hour day was 2 hrs of pracs
if there any engineers or wannabe engineers readin this they mite see some familiarity wid wht i am doin
i decide everydya tht i shall start studying or i shall atleast write my journals but i never come around to actually doin it
i have finally decided tht tomm i shall start studying as it is a holiday
but tomm india pak match starts so i dont knw whether it will be possible to study

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